APOLOGIZE!!!

Hello T.T nangis deh nangis...I have a problem, well actually gue gak ngerti apa akar masalah itu karena terlalu mendadak, its shocking you know? Tapi gue yakin yang salah itu truly emang gue... Gue minta maaf banget buat kalian (gausah disebut namanya ya ini privasi). Entah kalian mau maafin apa enggak tapi aku udah usaha buat minta penjelasan & akhirnya gue memutuskan buat minta maaf. Gue kaget banget asli dah,ini tuh bikin gue ngerasa bad. Mungkin gue egois ya benar gue emang superb egois. 

Walau gue 14 tahun tapi gue masih childish karena ya gue butuh perhatian (apalagi sahabat kayak kalian). Gue masih inget semua angan-angan kita dan segala macam canda tawa kita. Entah gue masih dianggap atau enggak,tapi gue yakin kalian bukan sahabat yg gampang ngebuang sahabatnya. Kalian tidak bertopeng malaikat (apalagi gue yg jutek abizz) tapi kalian berhati malaikat. Semua pernah ngerasain kayak gini,ini adil banget. Dan ini didikan hebat. Bikin gue belajar gimana caranya kuat,hang on,dan bertekad buat deket (bahkan sangat deket). Maaf banget sekali lagi, gue gak pernah setuju ada orang bilang "Eh urus nih dia kan temen lo" well,kalian BUKAN temen gue lagi melainkan kalian SAUDARA buat gue,SAHABAT buat gue,kadang bisa jadi MUSUH, kadang jadi STRANGER, kadang kalian PELAWAK buat gue, kadang kalian BADUT buat gue, bahkan ada yang kayak BUNDA buat gue, ada yang jadi ANAK-ANAKAN gue,ada yang jadi ADIK dan KAKAK buat gue. You are completely different than others. Gue tau ini bakal terjadi sekali-kali. Karena yang namanya jalan persahabatan gak pernah mulus,tapi gue yakin kita bisa rintis lagi baru. Penyesalan selalu dateng belakangan.

Kita susah senang bareng,jomblo taken bareng,makan minum bareng,mandi cebok bareng,nangis tidur bareng,ingusan ileran bareng,marah ketawa bareng,jutek ramah bareng,pergi pulang bareng,sekolah cabut bareng,terlambat bareng,gila waras bareng. Apa yang gak kita lakuin bareng-bareng? Hubungan suami istri? Well itu mah jangan ditanyain. Lope lope so much buat kalian, gue emang melankolis jadi maaf kalo gue cengeng ngadepin kalian. Maaf banget maaf :(
Ini ada 2 lagu yang mewakili kata-kata permohonan maaf dari gue (sama lagu tentang kita yang udah mau jalan 2 thun)...Sorry banget. Maybe there's no more enough words to say but u know me so well,we're not a strangers hah? We're worth,even we're landing in a land full of ashes but we're still a perfect metal (Lo pasti tau kan sinonimnya?)

~Say Anything~

Here I am on
The phone again and
Awkward silence is
On the other end

I used to know the sound 
Of a smile in your voice
But right now
All I feel
Is the pain of the fighting
Starting up again

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time after time) 

Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything say anything

Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything say anything

Some say that
Time changes
Best friends can
Become strangers

But I don't want that
No not for you
If you just stay with me 
We can make it through

So here we are again
The same old argument
And now I'm wondering
If things will ever change
When will you laugh again
Laugh like you did back then
Make noise till three a.m 
And the neighbors will complain

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind(on my mind)
And all the things we laughed about
They'll bring us through it everytime (after time after time)

Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything say anything

Please don't walk away 
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything say anything

I'm falling
I'm falling
I'm falling down

I'm falling 
I'm falling
I'm falling down
Down
Down
Down

Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything say anything

Please don't walk away 
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything say anything

~Through The Years~

I can't remember when you weren't there
When I didn't care for anyone but you
I swear we've been through everything there is
Can't imagine anything we've missed
Can't imagine anything the five of us can't do

Through the years
You've never let me down
You turned my life around
The sweetest days I've found
I've found with you
Through the years
I've never been afraid
I've loved the life we've made
And I'm so glad I stayed
Right here with you
Through the years

I can't remember what I used to do
Who I trusted whom, I listened to before
I swear you've taught me everything I know
Can't imagine needing someone so
But through the years it seems to me
I need you more and more

Through the years
Through all the good and bad
I knew how much we had
I've always been so glad
To be with you
Through the years
It's better everyday
You've wipe my tears away
As long as it's okay
I'll stay with you
Through the years

Through the years
When everything went wrong
Together we were strong
I know that I belong
Right here with you
Through the years
I never had a doubt
We'd always work things out
I've learned what life's about
By here with you
Through the years

Through the years
You've never let me down
You turned my life around
The sweetest days I've found
I've found with you
Through the years
It's better everyday
You've wipe my tears away
As long as it's okay
I'll stay with you
Through the years

"HOPEFULLY WE CAN FACE THE NEXT MARCH 26th

 2013 WITH ONE BRAND NEW DAY AND MEMORIES <3"